Sunday, January 24, 2010
A Friend
A true friend is someone who's there when you're down. Often forgotten when times are good, but always there when you need someone to talk to.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Social War
Sometimes, people can be full of crap. Sometimes, people don't realise that their nonsense actually does affect those around them. And most of the time, these people don't know why things happen and how they actually caused it.
Let's put it in a different context. The generally accepted, or perceived notion, of 'emo' refers to someone who is alone and doesn't exercise interaction and socialising due to some form of depression. But have you really wondered deeper on why that person may feel that way? Probably, yes. But have you really tried to make 'em feel any better? Despite their persistence at wanting to be alone, have you tried to really sit down and create a dialogue?
Everyone wants to be heard. Everyone has a story they wanna tell but some people find it more difficult than others. Some have a tendency to be more open easily whilst others need some time and gain trust of another individual to really open up. Me, I'm the latter. I can be bipolar and I get worse when I feel that no one cares. How? Well, the fact that I'm writing this is example of a last resort for me to make my feelings heard. But I digress.
At this moment of time, I'm facing a minute emotional distress amongst the people I interact with everyday. Not familial, but colleagues and friends. Why? Because I somehow feel that no one really appreciates me as a person and that I'm always being used by everyone.
If you hate me or hate personal stories, please log onto some other website 'cause I don't like to bore people about myself. If you do choose to continue reading...Very well.
I feel like I'm frequently being used by people around me. I have some musical background and I help compose songs for friends and so on. But I feel like people have abused my ability and that I don't get appreciated for my efforts. I feel like I'm only there because they need me to help 'em out. Apart from that, I wouldn't even be known. I'm taken for granted and that these people will just see me today and forget me tomorrow.
Same goes with 'friends'. Whenever people are alone, I would talk to them. If it's a big group, I couldn't care less. But if someone doesn't seem alright, I'll do my best to help 'em out. But the goddamn thing can't be said the other way around. Whenever I'm down, no one really approaches me and wants to know my problems. I get the usual, 'Anything wrong?' and if I say 'no', they'd be 'Alright...well, take care'. No one has ever come to me and say, 'No, you don't seem alright. If you want to talk about it, I'm all ears'. Never. I've been told secrets and emotions of people but I've never told much of my own state to many people. Why, because I feel that no one really wants to know.
This has made a huge side effect on me. Because of this, I feel that I'm under appreciated. I'm there for Music and Footie. Apart from that, no one would really ask me out to hang out. Really...I know I'm not a perfect dude, but I'm rarely called out to hang out. Even with the people I frequently talk to. I'm never in their priority list or anyone's in fact. I'm just another person you'd probably met, chatted with, took for granted and forgotten. Because of the affection I'm receiving from people I talk to, I feel this way. I feel like I'm not important. I feel like I'm just an extra in everyone's life. I feel like I wouldn't make a difference in anyone's life and that my presence is just there for no reason but for being there.
Work related. In my project team, I feel like no one really appreciates me as a person outside. I'm just another team member. I'm the one who animates, does the sound, music and story concepts. But outside...I'm not missed, I'm no one important. Just a pawn, a tool for you to use to get by in your selfish desires to claim achievement and success.
Remember this, no one is 'emo' by choice for no reason. People around them make them that way. Society forces them to feel this way. So by casting these people and branding them as a menace or a nuisance is just making things worse. So, really if someone you know becomes this way, talk to them. If they persist on being silent, make them feel wanted and that they have some ears to talk to. Don't make them feel the way I have. Everyone wants to share something. Be it problems or worries. But will you listen?
Let's put it in a different context. The generally accepted, or perceived notion, of 'emo' refers to someone who is alone and doesn't exercise interaction and socialising due to some form of depression. But have you really wondered deeper on why that person may feel that way? Probably, yes. But have you really tried to make 'em feel any better? Despite their persistence at wanting to be alone, have you tried to really sit down and create a dialogue?
Everyone wants to be heard. Everyone has a story they wanna tell but some people find it more difficult than others. Some have a tendency to be more open easily whilst others need some time and gain trust of another individual to really open up. Me, I'm the latter. I can be bipolar and I get worse when I feel that no one cares. How? Well, the fact that I'm writing this is example of a last resort for me to make my feelings heard. But I digress.
At this moment of time, I'm facing a minute emotional distress amongst the people I interact with everyday. Not familial, but colleagues and friends. Why? Because I somehow feel that no one really appreciates me as a person and that I'm always being used by everyone.
If you hate me or hate personal stories, please log onto some other website 'cause I don't like to bore people about myself. If you do choose to continue reading...Very well.
I feel like I'm frequently being used by people around me. I have some musical background and I help compose songs for friends and so on. But I feel like people have abused my ability and that I don't get appreciated for my efforts. I feel like I'm only there because they need me to help 'em out. Apart from that, I wouldn't even be known. I'm taken for granted and that these people will just see me today and forget me tomorrow.
Same goes with 'friends'. Whenever people are alone, I would talk to them. If it's a big group, I couldn't care less. But if someone doesn't seem alright, I'll do my best to help 'em out. But the goddamn thing can't be said the other way around. Whenever I'm down, no one really approaches me and wants to know my problems. I get the usual, 'Anything wrong?' and if I say 'no', they'd be 'Alright...well, take care'. No one has ever come to me and say, 'No, you don't seem alright. If you want to talk about it, I'm all ears'. Never. I've been told secrets and emotions of people but I've never told much of my own state to many people. Why, because I feel that no one really wants to know.
This has made a huge side effect on me. Because of this, I feel that I'm under appreciated. I'm there for Music and Footie. Apart from that, no one would really ask me out to hang out. Really...I know I'm not a perfect dude, but I'm rarely called out to hang out. Even with the people I frequently talk to. I'm never in their priority list or anyone's in fact. I'm just another person you'd probably met, chatted with, took for granted and forgotten. Because of the affection I'm receiving from people I talk to, I feel this way. I feel like I'm not important. I feel like I'm just an extra in everyone's life. I feel like I wouldn't make a difference in anyone's life and that my presence is just there for no reason but for being there.
Work related. In my project team, I feel like no one really appreciates me as a person outside. I'm just another team member. I'm the one who animates, does the sound, music and story concepts. But outside...I'm not missed, I'm no one important. Just a pawn, a tool for you to use to get by in your selfish desires to claim achievement and success.
Remember this, no one is 'emo' by choice for no reason. People around them make them that way. Society forces them to feel this way. So by casting these people and branding them as a menace or a nuisance is just making things worse. So, really if someone you know becomes this way, talk to them. If they persist on being silent, make them feel wanted and that they have some ears to talk to. Don't make them feel the way I have. Everyone wants to share something. Be it problems or worries. But will you listen?
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